How can I be effected in such a huge way, something so small can have such a huge impact. The most important person in my world slips right through my fingers and there is nothing that can be done. Am I that shitty of a person? I will never understand how I can try so hard and accomplish so little how does anyone manage to be a good daughter, sister, best friend, God mother, and everything else without sometimes falling apart. The trouble here is I have no one to catch me this time I’ll just keep falling until I find a way to get back on my own two feet.